What I do and say

There's a certain way that I do and say things in order to achieve a particular reaction.

When people ask me to do something that I do not really feel comfortable with, I don't become emotional or give a negative reaction. In an indifferent tone I just say 'sure' and do it. This normally happens when I'm outside home. You see at home I'm feel very strong and sure, with my mind in a lucid state. But I hope it's human nature to feel free at home. Nevertheless, because of my high ambition to make it as a marketing director, no, not only a marketing director but a true marketing genius, I have a reluctant urge to be with people to try understand their dynamic nature. But whenever I'm with those people I feel helpless and weak. My critics have pointed out that I'm a pigheaded, I hate taking orders from anyone. I find it very irrelevant to entertain the validity of their findings. The point to see why I need people's respect is not in me. With people, I expect them to remain themselves, disregarding the feelings I don't have for them. In blunt honest, I' m not expecting people to respect me because I trust my psychological strength to elevate me to medium confidence.
This is not an attempt to open myself to exploitation but at work, until I realise my ambition, I will remain a sarcastically 'yes man' remain with a good salary each months. In good terms this can be referred to as guile. And it should not mean that I actually do not take impressive responsibility and accountability, because I like the idea working hard while accumulating money, knowledge and experience of the corporate world.
My weakness have been to communicate within the terms of the industry, but I got reminded by John Sculley writing that stated, 'visionaries are constantly looking towards the horizon for the future, sometimes their is a lonesome battle, but through perseverance and intelligence their victory is amazing; even when it means losing some few battles along the way... This can be good motivation of a man who sees himself as not very bright but working towards brilliance in almost every activity he engage himself in.
I love to be honest....., my talk sometimes make me feel stupid.
I want..., I want... I want to communicate brilliantly and think clearly to make to that objective.....(you might have guessed by now)