A Little Self

........a little bit of self will not hurt if you know how to project oneself geniunely'



This is idea of power has a powerful effect in bringing to light my yearning for insight on my personality and thinking style. I do not like to see myself as someone looking for power over others or anything for that matter. The power of an idea, which I would love find but unaware of what it is, is what motivates my attempt to be a good thinker.

Instead of fighting the idea of my personality from the eyes of the public i have decided to focus on what to do with an idea that comes to my mind. To be popular is not my priority but to get things right in time is one fundamental that drive me towards reaching heights which my critic would see as power obsession. By 'my critics', i'm referring to astrological readings because i hardly get around people so well that they can criticise my selfish ambitions. However, I also need to confess that my thoughts sometimes betray me when i attempt to express them. Honestly, no one wants to be at loss of words to give meaning to his thoughts, neither do I.
My checklist that I keep in my head, tells me there's more of me living in the head than I reality. This is good, provided I have something useful in my head to think about. I can't try to figure out what goes on great thinkers' heads because I would love to think something original myself.
In my quest to find the psychology of geniuses, I watched a movie,'A beautiful mind' with Tom Hanks as John Nash, the mathematical genius. I couldn't understand how genius he was because I never got the chance to critic his doctorate paper but I sensed the fact that his imaginary friend is similar to my speaking to myself.
When I grew up I used to come to a conclusion that in every brilliant thinker, there was a hint of madness.
Just imagine if I become a marketing director of an investment corporation(nothing about power), with my rather unsettling personality, pondering the competitive advantage of a our investment products. Will I be deemed a misfit if my thinking is wholly geniune but not looking at the consumers at the time? By not 'looking at the consumers', I mean using consumer behaviour techniques than playing at the crowd.

I'm my own critic, that's why I don't give people enough time to be more closer to me........