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When one is in a particular state of mind it's the views of individuals around that determine the labeling. Strange,isn't it? For the past three months, oh, actually, since the beginning of this year, I've been in particular state of mind. I am known for my prudence and discipline,monetarily and in my studies. This is the perception that I have not snubbed because there are some proof to it. You might be asking by now 'Yes but'. Some of acquaintances might have come to see me as introverted. The latter would be much nearer to non-existence.
In my current state of mind, it would be a great fallacy to state that I have been discipline and prudent both monetarily and studiously. Although, I intend to be back to full swing within the next few days I regret to have not managed my finances and time wisely. But hang-on, why was I not managing the two precious assets anyone can have? Was it my playful nature? Did I meet a girl? Yes, I met a girl. She is the girl that had turned my head before I could ever land myself a job. In fact, it will be appropriate to say she might in a scale of ten been the reason I've worked so so hard to get the what amount of money I have currently. I cannot blame it on her that I have seen my finances dwindle to my dislike for the past few weeks becauseI had a choice not to spend anything on her but I did. I cannot blame it on her that I have not studied enough for the past few weeks because I had a choice to study. All this I hope to change and I'm sure like hell that I'll recover within the next few days. At work, my passsion will increase by tenfold, my determination shall ensure accurate performance on all my responsibilities. But what about the girl? Will she be part of this picture? Yes, is the answer to latter question.
I have decieded, because I cannot leave her but include her in my schedule without ever compromising the time I have allocated for my endeavours. Doing this will not be easy but I have undisclosed faith that with her my life will reach new, exciting heights that I once dreamt about. It is no secret that she's remains the only person thus far who I have lost some of my tightly kept fat bank balance. This led to a rather telepathic comment made by my teamleader, he said, 'why is it that you seem to be more giving than you're recieving.' It's a disheartening comment to anyone who wish to do something for their own benefit, but I was taught that helping, sharing with people is the greatest reward that any value-living person can get. Furthermore, it's a testing time for me at this stage to be working, studying, partying, taking care of my girlfriend and then manage to see through all these into completion. Despite the fear that many people see as borne, hard out, in my bones there's a lot that I wish to attempt. In the next few days, I will be driving a mini cooper. Despite the effect this may have in my credit rating for a house that I intend to purchase with my lovely girlfriend, there is still confidence the ffect will not deter the see through of the house plan going to effect.
Personally, I have become, lately, more of a dreamer than the practical, down-to-earth person. My dream is that something great will happen to me, something I will learn to appreciate for quite some time. The main something great is financial reward through some luck I have no knowledge of. In my right mind, this may happen soon, to thank me for some past, present effort. 'Who knows? Lightning could strike.! But Kurhula is for keeps. All obstacles may come and go but there is way.
The state of mind, lastly, is definitive view of my current situation.
