To be afraid

What makes anyone scared? Is fear justifiable?



There are kinds of fear that one cannot avoid. Some are justifiable fears. But what about being told about fears that you have no knowledge of. Should you be scared? Will the fear be justifiable? My answer can be 'yes'. You can be scared for recieving information about being told that you are scared. Fear gives me hope! Hate gives me strength!


What I'm trying to achieve is the reliance on my inner power to keep my well being sustained. I have not any evidence that show that there's someone I do not like much or I need them more than they need me. That's very scary! While learning to be afraid, it is improbable to smile because the two do not equate.



Be very afraid!



What would you do when you're branded as uncompromising while in contrary you're expected to compromise. I get very afraid of those who brand me. No man is unable to direct his own future for his very own selfish gains. And I'm no exception.
Quite lately, I have tried to reach out t people in a very nice way. Perceptually, this showed my extroverted side. However, I have found it loyally reasonable to hang out a lot during weekends. This due to certain circumstances that affect my pocket badly. Buying booze does not help a lot. I have found that people will normally expect me to supply their drinking needs, something I have come detest lately. Secondly, there's this fine lady in the neighbourhood. 'Yes, the one I once said she told her friends that I'm in love with.' I'm not saying that I have no interest but I'm saying that I hardly force people to like me. I expect people, for example, if we are love, to know that all requirements for love to grow must be met openly.
I'll be very afraid to tell her again that we should sleep together.
Why?
Because I asked her on Saturday, just to have the time for me. Her response, 'not today'.
I did not react because I never react to situations. I diverted my attention to something.
Proactive plan: To move or not to move? Because she talk loudly, I'll listen to her words but patiently awaiting for sign to take swift action about her being ready.
If that does not work then I can gladly admit failure.
I will be more watchful to her being clingy. I do not expect her or anyone to ask me for money. So if she can be clingy in love then, I'm off.
But drinking alcohol for this period is not my favourite hobby.