Things Fall Apart

The tendency for me to be outspoken has reached a point where one must sit back and learn to tolerate oneself. Over the past few weeks I have been in a state of doubt about the route I was taking to let my adventurous spirit fly. Socrates is the ancient philosopher who I have come to admire for his provocative rhetoric. Always a questioner, 'What if we think what we do is the right while it is actually the wrong?' I come to the thinking that everyone wants to do the right thing in their life. Back to me, I have met many interesting people over the past weeks. Most of those I took interest on were women. This due to the fact that I have wanted to date very beautiful women only. Luckily, I got to talk to some of them and I have insisted on growing the friendship to the next level. I can't find anything to credit for this stroke of, but because of i'm in the process of smoothing my attitude and thinking to have edible persuasion that ensure I get into sexual intercourse with most of them, easily. There was a party that I went to. I was invited by my friend, who was invited by his girlfriend to her friend's party. I sensed we were to have a good time. When we arrived we were introduced to most attendees. Know anything about the law of attraction? Love at first sight? Something like that? I got to meet a girl whom I knew first hand that I want to speak to her as long as fate allows. I introduced myself to her with Abraham Lincoln like honest. Because I took her number, I explained to her why I will not talk to her 'we are all drinking.'
You see, I learned that going out sometimes help because I got to meet people I would not meet if I was staying home. I have come to admit that i'm an extrovert who would like to be liked and attracted to many beautiful things in life.
Through that experience, I have come to realise that I need to manage my finances rather i intelligently and responsible. This means I have to have a budget for fun while having lots of money left for the rest of the month. I have applied for a credit card that has been approved and it should be on its way soon. Why I applied for credit card? I want to make sure that I always have a positive balance, which can give me enough points on the eyes of the creditors. I will love to maintain a positive balance of R1,000,00 every month.
The market: I want to project and act myself as 'myself' who is positoned in the social cycle of the middle class. This does not mean that I'm trying to keep up with the Joneses, but a projection that is compatible to the life I would love to live if I choose where to be born and to live.
The Life: As my intention to live life as a lust is something I can attempt, the life characterised by risk, passion and surprises seem to follow me even when I try hard to evade it. I have decided to let it be.