How I want to work

Someone I cannot remember once said,'What ever you do just do it with all your passion and painstaking planning.' It's an ideal I would love to work towards that ideal.

Work is not something to love but it is 'must' like when a genius want his work done to perfect completion. Here I'm refering to healthy obsession about what one does. This need of thoroughness I should apply in whatever task I undertake. I'm not saying I will not be making mistakes but I'll be trying hard to do something with detailed desire and precision of a surgeon. It is widely true that everyone has an innate need to do anything to a point of perfection, but that has nothing to do with me at the moment. It's a single minded desire that I have so far. This thorough desire for organized working style I should apply from every 'small' viewed task such as doing filing to longstanding, from advertising to writing, from marketing to sex. Now you have it! I have a desire, so please pray for me. It's a maddening experience, a need to do something better than one has done it before, a need to take every task as a matter that need undivided completion and manageability. I cannot confirm that to achieve this yearning requires above average intellect, but I have a feeling that average people like me can reach it if they let nothing stand in their way to accomplish this rather painful but notoriously rewarding adventure. I admit to not have learned this skill at an early stage.

The wide desire to be good at what i do does not mean there can be any distinction between my not so pleasant behaviour. I don't not value my behaviour so much because I find it very irrelevant to my pragmatic nature. Being true to myself is a necessity.

This ideal does not require me to be a super showman, but to have a background of how, why I want to achieve the ideal. Here, I'm not refering to my seclusion from dependence to other people. No! It's far from that.

To forge ahead with this vision of 'pursuit of excellence', will abviously require me to compromise a lot and doing so will not give me that enough peace, but hey, something have to be painful to be exceptional. I'm also not trying to transform myself into a superhero but the expression of genuine interest. I'm an admire of people who are thorough, efficient and organized. I try to learn the practicality of being painfully organized. Although I have been described as energetic and everything that links me not to intelligent personality, I'm willing to strive to excellence.