The power of will

In any well intentioned men, there's undying will to make happen a vision that suits his purposes. I am the kind of men who has a vision I wish to see happen. The reason I wish to see my vision happening is because I am in a stage where the only thing that could happen is vision.
I wish to have the willpower to release my determination in ensuring consistent hard work.
I wish to have consistent harmonious relationship within my circles.
I wish to utilise my energy where necessary, earn much money making my vision come to fruition.
It is my wish to be progressively assertive without fear or reservation.
I would like to ensure that I remain abundantly successful in my finances.
I wish to remain consistently hard working.
My wish is to get a job where I could earn at least R25,000,00 per month because that's part of vision.
I wish to have substantial willpower to ensure I work through my vision.

What might I be

I may not be an individual holding popular views and screaming about them. I may not be your kind of a leader. But I know a vital strength that I think
tend to bend to in order to identify with myself. I am a task master. People understand my pragmatism than my casual conversationality and that's what I think
I might be: a taskmaster.
I do not seek to motivate, inspire when I smile, get excited or cheerful but I am merely solving an emotional situation which I could hardly face directly.
I am a problem solver who find himself more at home with systems, seemingly complicated data and insight than with people for mere casuality. I only
find myself getting along with people when there's a common cause we are both seeking a solution to. I do understand the nature of human thinking and continuosly
seek to do so. I am tolerant but not internally patient.
In conclusion, I love challenges more than people while undersanding and being human enough to pick their brains. It would be wise to think that I prefer
picking people's brains than anything for my random program in motion or to be in motion.

Underlying life direction

Out of the flash I decided to write about the way my life has voluntarily patterned out. I do not like the way my life stop and start after every two years.
My dislike is that after my very first attempt on any challenge ends in disappointment. Thereafter, I have to battle to get myself back on track. This
frustrated my progress at times. I want my life to be a smooth ride because I always give my all in making all opportunities work.
The thought of my life making progress with ease excite and motivate my hard working nature. In all honest, the reason that this 'after two years' backlog
should end in this 2010 year. I want to rest after three years or so when embarking on another career upheaval. If things go my way, the next job should afford to pay me R25,000,00 per month, for three years. Thereafter, I will be making plans from the beginning to kickstart the foundation of my business.
That's why I do not want to have any stops from there on. I want a straight run. I want a straight run because I will commit myself fully to the coming
position.

How I want to think

If the state of mind contribute to the attitude of person's behaviour, therefore, a way of thinking is the idiosyncrasy of the precedent. I would like to think more about the future than the present. I want to think about things that develop my sense of direction. I want to think in English because of the survival of my career. I want to think definitively.
I want to think informatively. I want to think about my views. I want to be able to defend, informatively, my viewpoint. I want to be able to know what my thinking mean to both myself. I want my thinking to be based on my thinking, experience with other people, circumstances and knowledge. I want to rely more on my instinct than on anything else. I want to think, with great belief, that I deserve the successes that I have worked hard for. It would be my
greatest achievement to think, therefore, I become. I want to think that I am right in my own way. I want to believe in myself through my thinking. I want to speak English with great articulation and eloquence. I want to think about a vision which could make me calm and successful.

Sex in relationship

It has become an accepted norm that good sexual performance in a relationship is vital for a lasting relationship. I have no founded evidence on that matter. However, my view on good sexual performance is positive. I think it's important for anyone who engage in sex to ejaculate after more than ten minutes.
Doing so requires one to focus on long lasting erection, body performance other than ejaculation. It is important to concentrate for more than ten minutes if one is to have long lasting erection. Being mentally strong when having sex could make the intercourse long lasting.
I am not impressed by my recent sexual performance. My wish has been to make a women scream and feel the pleasure of having sex. I wish to improve this performance by concentrating longer, having my mind on long lasting performance. I want to be able to ejaculate after more than ten minutes. I want my to drown in remaining erect for longer. I want my mind to be strong to sustain my body for longer. I want to keep my body strong.
I want to believe that long lasting sex is the best sex. I want to make my body to retain its stamina for more than ten minutes while having sex.

How I want to be seen

Before I list the qualities that I want to associate with me, I want to make clear qualities that I do not want to be associated with. I do not want to be seen as some foolish, and stupid person. I do not want to be seen as weak, neither be seen as always compromising. In conversation I do not want to be seen as loud mouth with no substance of what is being said.
Now that I have mentioned qualities that I do not want to be associated with, it is time for me mention qualities that I want myself to be associated with.
I want to be seen as the right person, a person who always say the right thing at the right time. Owen Mabasa who does the right thing. I want to be known for my articulate self, my eloquence in speaking terms. I want to be known for my planning, smart working nature. Someone who builds trust
among people. The part of me that want to be revealed is my intellectual communication, the airyness in my manner of speaking.
This is how I want to be seen.

Looking for peace of mind

Having a job to pay my bills gives me peace of my mind. Earning my expectant salary gives me peace of mind.
Performing well in my job gives me peace of mind. Knowing that I'm making the right decisions gives me peace of mind,
Living my ideal life gives me glimmer of hope.
Being in the right place, at the right time create a feeling of warmth. Achieving most of my goals leave me feeling better.
Having a relevant attitude across different situations increase my feeling of self worth. Being truthful, and wise in my life increase the sense of
being self directed and more inner peace.

The relationship

How do you make of a relationship where there's no trust? It is a popular norm to stay away from your partners' phone or email. But when you find
something in his/her cellphone that shake your trust would there be any dispute to the truth of such findings. Could you pretend that such information contain
a potential act of infidelity? Hell no! Anyone will remain sceptical of their partner.
Why do we promote this norm of staying away from your partner's information resources while their acts might betray the value of a relationship?
No one would, in their right mind, want to be cheated on. It hurt me badly to have found an sms sent from another source expressing love for my wife.
It brings doubts to her very utterance of being committed to this relationship. I am not better myself but being cheated on does not make me forgiving in
any sense. From now on, I would like to look for signals to her infedilty acts. My pride would be tainted if I do not take action to eliminate infedility in
my relationship. I do not deny my concern about her past relationship, my jealousy about it but I am willing to forgive and forget the things she has done in the past. I am willing to freely pursue our life's journey together. I yearn to help fulfill her wishes. See things from her side

Passionate yet controlled

I would talk with self controlled passion.
Be able to accurately judge people's true intentions.
Circumvent unscrupulous people's intentions to exploit me.
Find ways to retain my passion for being a perfectionist worker;
Yet not letting anyone exploit my weaknesses.
Achieve great results through giving enrgy to my work.
Maintain high momentum from start to finish.
Always expect to earn more, due to my passion.
Bring forth well thought, documented ideas to improve productivity

En route to employment

It has become imminent that I make this bold plan to employment. I am in need of work to sustain my life. To take care of people I hold dear to my heart. Because I have made a plan to make at least two applications each day for a job, there's a supplementary plan that need to beef up my alrady succesfull plan.
In line with the application plan I would add the interview plan. It would be a success mesurable when I am able to secure at least two interviews each week. This will give me an overview of whether my communication has a validity when my skills, experience, and vision is being shared with prospective employers. It will also give me a platform to improve on my communcation while in employment. Further develop skills that I have seen to necessary when communicating. When able to secure these two interviews per week, it could mean a good balance in landing a position as early as possible. It is a good plan
for job hunting I am currently embarking.
I have hope that this plan will work accurately with a bit of luck!

One passionate couple.

Not even our illdiscipline could stand on our way. Our fears does not derail.
Our differences seek to be understood. Our hearts are divided, while we
somehow want to get along. We know each other but couldn't find the matching of our ideals. We look on the outside when we should be looking on the inside, look in the inside when we could be looking on the outside. Sometimes we look different ways altogether. If I am not dreaming, we yearn to have characteristics that enable less volatility in finding common ground.
We want to live a life that our should be the sticking point. We want to know why we
can't be ourselves and still be fine with it. We want to make each other better, but
but we are corrupted by the virtuoso of our societal nature. We think it's fine,
think it's not fine while never wanting to face the reality of such thinking.
Are we there yet? Did we know we will get here? I s/he proving herself accurate by
doing or not doing this? Can't I fulfill more questions than looking for more answers?
Have my world changed in the manner that I idealised, has it changed really? Is it the same old actions with different script, can and can't I live to the reality of blind but not so blind faith? Faith on what? 'Faith on the blindness of our own rational thinking'
Do we even know what our rational thinking in relaistic perspective really is? Do we know reality?When did we see reality, is reality even seen. Who is who,why do we even ask the questions. Are we combined but not having a clue. Is one of us ever going to be at the forefront of what true happiness is. Are there people who want either one of us to be unsuccesfull. Should we rule out the power of other people to take us out. When do we get to answers thess questions, do we really,really need to answer the questions really! Why do we ask the question. Can there be a chance asnwers coming everytime, everyday but we had made up our minds by then. Do we all want believe biliefs about certain myth. Are that unique?
Can we see and appreciate our uniqueness, or do we see no need to but admiring in secret. You ask whether I am any genuine representation of your side. Doeas everything above make any sense. Could he be looking at the
wrong side of me. Tricking me into believing him. Do I need to believe him. Is he negative, can he really change, Have I made up my mind about my needs but not seeing the biigger picture. You hear his voice say,'Have I made a mistkae by not going. Do I really know where to go, for what, for whom. Am I not missing the point,
is there a point. Why do I think all this. Am I carzy. Am I imgining a life I could not live becuase I imagined it.
Why am I writing this piece, what do I want to prove, to whom, for what, don't I care, do I care.
Is the arrogance of my knowledge. Have I become too bad for my knowledge. Do I know anything about anyone.
Can't we wait and see, do we really need to be the same, is sameness a perception invented. Do we know differences. are there differences, Do we want differences, what will happen when become same in success and heart, but easy enough to bear the weight of success. Is there more to ask? Are we a telepathic team, can we be telepathic? Has it not been a beginning of change in attitude and denouncement. What if we were all millionnaires, what if you and I were perfect for each other. Can we see the achievement of perfcet being from each other in different ways. Can we fill our hearts, quietly, and privately our love foe each other without loosing our ideals. Is the more to ask? Could I say I love you? Could you do the same? Should I believe you?
Do you expect that question? Are you open enough to see that I might not know anything or know everything.
Is there no kiss goodbye?
Am I dreaming?

En route to self discovery

I have had this thought flying in my head for quite some time. By letting it out I hope to achieve one of two things:
- Total freedom.
- Gain new, positive perspective to my love life
My regret to having married the person I married led me to think about what to do in order to break free from the regret. After getting a job in which I earn at least R25,0000,00 per month I would seperate with my current wife. I will concentrate on my job, studies, finances and personal values. I will leave our current house to her after deleting my name from the contract. I will then take items I bought, and the car.
Thereafter, I will take it to my stride to pay off my car within twelf month after being employed. After that I will look to buy an apartment, which has been my goal. But before leaving her I will convince my wife to ensure the car, which we sold to my cousin, has been changed to register under my cousin's name.
Somtimes it's hard following one's heart but I hope my heart will decide for me which is good for it and which is not.
I have no intention of harming anyone, but I am trying to find myself by all this.

Being in the wild

Being out there in the world is not a child's play. It's the world where you
come to realise that your survival depends on your wits, determination and strength.
You learn about independence. You realise what it means to be self sufficient. You encounter challenges to your view of the world.
I am talking about myself because I am all alone in my struggle to liberate myself. In respect of people and the world. I come across situations that make me think about myself. I come across environments that challenge my thinking about the world. This enhances my independent view of the world. The world which we hardly know but love living in. I'm in the world where I need to be who I am. The world where I would like to be as influential as I dreamt to be. This is my world of purism, the world of intelligence, the world of discovering myself. I do not what else constitute my being but would curiously need to know.
The truth about myself should be what it's meant to be. In the wild nothing seem permanent but your views about it.
To be successful in my world I would remain as stubborn as I could be to achieve my vision, direction, and ideals.

Why I want to...

My world revolve around me. My world doesn't necessarily infringe the rights
of others. In my world I understand others', although I do not necessarily agree
with them. It is easy for me to let others have their way about their lifes. I hate
controlling people. My only motivattion for being with people is to exchange
inspiration.
Why I want to communicate when given an opportunity is because of my belief
in bearing great inspirational ideas. I value my world because it's challenging.
There are no strings attached in my world. In my worldly dreams I have material,spiritual,educational, and harmonious relationships to fulfill. My ideal world revolve around being outspoken, and beautifully influential.
Why would anyone not want to believe in the positive power of my world?

Finding peace of mind

The could not be remembered unless one need to stay behind. I don't want to stay in the past. I don't want to know about the bad past. What I want to find is to look inside myself and see the art of my creation, the power of my insight, my vision to shape my future.I want to be able to use my brains, I want to be able to speak clearly. I want to look into people and see their bright side. I want to forgive and forget what people have done in the past.
I want to forgive and forget myself for being fallible. I want to feel normal for
everything I do. I want to admit and forgive my fear of not being liked. I want to stop being jealous. I want to stop preempting what others' might think about things I do or say. I want the strength to respect other people, no matter what they,or how they say it.
I want to see an independent, free soul when I look within myself. I want to think positive things, even when I appear stupid. I want to appear positively smart.
I need to control my life. I want to be my fateful, destinic self. I want to be able to achieve my goals within my prescribed timeline. I want to be who I would
like to be. I want to have strong views about my world and be able to live upon them.