The reflection

I think I'm deeply engaging with my true self to take the time to reveal a rather eccentric nature of my very true background.
My intricate reasoning behind this is my hope to at least reveal the scar that tend to make me self-conscious, sometimes flashing brilliance, reclusive, fiercely independent, and risk-taking yet wise.
My not-so-wealthy or lower middle class upbringing has also served as my inspiration to see the world in a way that I see it. It is with noting that I am not saying this upbringing was the only reason I'm aggressively, single mindedly pursuing my goals the way I am. The contrary is true in every sense. When you are from a very poor background and still possess great strength to see through your vision, there's a sense of wonder and magical feeling that goes around people's minds.
'How did he do it?'
Although the above is not the case with me but I get the feeling that my background is the prime motivation behind my current successes and failures. Look, I'm saying this with clear view of what my family background look like; almost to my devastation.
However, when I decided to capture my memories of my family back in Venda,I said to myself,'I'm going to take this with me wherever I go, thus I can remain determined to see through almost every vision I have.
Listen I clearly know by the time I'm writing this I have no room which I would call my own when I visit my family. I might be driving one of the most admired car in the world,earn a middle class salary by holding a prestigious position in my industry,live in the peaceful area in Jozi, own an iPhone, MacBook pro,dress diligently, married to one of the brightest lady you could meet,and give the most inspirationlly informative presentation, but, but,but 'I remain one of the most scarred person in the world of success unless I at least try to salvage my pride when I visit my family.
This is where I grew up and it would take a while for me to think about abandoning it. This means I must take action to heal this scar.
To end this,'When you were born poor, you have nothing to lose. That's why it's quite
easy to become outrageously wealthy. i have nothing to lose thus I will do everything possible to change this grim reality.

Constructive Anger

Being the ambitious individual that I am, it is no wonder that I often get angry when things does not go my way. I cannot deny my being emotional about not living up to my high ideals.
I am currently unhappy with the way my career is at. I am consistently making applications to company's for my dream job. However, there is not much progress.
It make me feel guilty of some career sin I am not even aware of.I hardly receive a call from one of the potential employers to interview me, let alone an email.
I am angry about all that because I am yearning to fulfill my career ambitions within my specified deadline.
Why am not making the progress, I don't know, but what I know is that I am trying all things possible to get myself back on track.
Each and every application I make is made through sheer obsession to at least say to God,when He ask me, 'what you done to serve me?'. Therefore, I will be any position to say,'You saw me everyday applying for the position of my dream and you didn't even help.

2010 wishlist.

1. Getting a job where I earn at R25000 per month. 2. I wish the job coule either be advertising or marketing position. 3. Being able to enrol for my marketing studies. 4. To be able to finance my own business for start up. 5. To drink extremely less alcohol and quit smoking. 6. To have paid up my debts in order to save. 7. To laugh more often.

True Love is never enough

Love has seemingly evolved from the feeling of the heart to the pragmatism that is yet to be acknowledged by moral society.
To further this argument, we will quote from the popular sayings that have encaptured us: 'Money talks', 'Money and love goes together', 'Women will only love you when you got money', 'A lady has complained about the guy she was dating but was only interested in her fat bank account,''I would not mind dating an old lady who has a car, house and money.'
The above is just the few of popular thinking that tend to represent the opportunism that have become attached to love. It furthers the notion of true love having faded away from the beauty called life. The logical conclusion to this fantasy equals= 'the survival of the fattest bank account'.
It is no wonder that we can never come to understand the meaning of true love because we have become accustomed to listening to our heads but not our heart. I cannot categorically state that the underlying factor that constitute divorce our general society experience in high volume can be attributed to the lack of money. Nevertheless, in the thinking of the middle class society when people leave each other, more especially a women,
money has consistently, through repetitive conversation encounter, been linked to the separation.
It would be foolish to assume that financial stability should not help relax the constraints of a relationship, but genuine commitment should avail itself most when it is not any party's fault that money is not available within the period. Yes money does build relationship but money does not strengthen the emotional, spiritual and mental aspect of any relationship.
In the instance where true love is needed money remains a superficial possession that fulfill only that: superficial needs.
When reading this article an avid reader start to realise that this is not about true love but the role of true love where money remains the balancing factor not the primary factor that keep the fire of love burning.
as per the write: Anyone loving me for money shall get that: the pain of money,
Anyone leaving me due to my financial situations remains that: my enemy towards my financial freedom.
It's a painful perception that society has not dared to challenge but many have suffered incorrect perceptual degration due to the concealed beauty of two people joining together.
Lastly, love remains the survival of values than the pocket.
But be warned, money should remain the balancing factor but should not be the reason that people leave each other. That will be exploitation.
I have protected myself through values and daredevil combativeness to guard my perception against ill founded reasoning.
Loving someone should be the reason you acquire great financial wealth. Refer to Napoleon Hill bestseller,'Think and Grow rich' under the chapter of Sexual transmutation

The art of pressure

We have been taught to take things easy. Reminded not put ourselves under unnecessary pressure. However, when we have to run away from a fearful situation, we feel the pressure that we do not want to exert ourselves into. Although we realise that our body, soul and mind do not die from working under extreme pressure we still stand tall and say, 'do not put yourself under pressure.'
My dynamic and unflinchingly ambitious nature has, thus far, taught me that, 'if you want to realise your vision as soon as possible, you should walk yourself into a situation which many may see as unnecessary pressure. Furthermore, what they see as unnecessary pressure should mean your ability to push back boundaries. Because experience has taught me that working under pressure is the greatest asset I can have while on course to realise my vision.
Finally, I will proudly work under pressure because that's the only way I may realise my full potential, instantly!