This word can convey different meaings. But in this context I would love to remain objective about the word insteaad of detailing its meaning. It's a personal minicrisis that took place today, Saturday 23, 2008 August. You see, like every other individual who has something to do when not at work.
At 06h45, I was awake looking out for a day that it can be. Ordinarily, this a pay day when the following Monday is the 25th. I was looking forward to having my money deposited to my account. At 07h14, i left the house to Joburg city centre, where I was going to 'drive'. I arrived there at around 08h00. Previously, when I arrived, the guy would tell me to wait for the instructor to come but today it wasn't like that. The guy who stays in the office told me something that made me a bit sceptical. He said,'please wait for the instructor outside, he's just moving out the truck from the parking bay.' That was fine but he added,' wait for him at pie shop corner.' What! When i first came here the instructor parked his truck at the street after the pie shop. Prior to that, I found that the money deposited to my account was not the amount I expected. I was mentally calculating how did R1,500,00 missed in my account. I had been thinking about this from last month. Okay! Then came the instructor! Nice one, my lesson are to begin. I got to the driver's sit, ready to drive with flair. Off we go, keeping my eyes open to his suggestion. 'Turn left, turn right and so forth.' Then the moment of truth arrived. He wanted to refill the car. We went to the garage. When he told me to turn right, I looked where right was. It was the garage, I can't name it due to my reservation to free publicity, that I turned to. I intended to stop at right next to the tank. But according to the instructor, I was way off the tank lid and filling station tank. He told me to 'reverse'. Reverse! I couldn't believe what he told me. I have been driving for the second time. I reversed the truck. Booffff!!!! We hit another car. It was a taxi.
Discontinued! Because i'm looking forward to being the driver that I can be!
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Saturday, August 23, 2008
Friday, August 15, 2008
The Man I am
There's a strongly entreched perception about being a man in the streets of my social circle. To prove your manhood, you must 'live with your girlfriend'. This perception might be valid in many ways because it is the norm of mankind to evolve through family. What this perception has failed to consider is the preparation that come with 'living with your girlfriend' to prove your manhood. Basic human needs such as shelter,food, security and clothing should be taken into consideration when deciding to live with your girlfriend. As the man that I am I have found myself to be rather scattered and a bit inconfident to put into effect the perception.
My past experience has shown me i'm still immature to take care of anyone whom i might consider 'my girlfriend'. I'm still interested in boyish charms such as dating a very beautiful lass in town, and having wild sex without the consideration of settling down. Although, I have doubt of achieving such a superficial ideal because I have not realised it yet, I wonder how will I know to settle down if haven't achieved the ideal.
Recently, I was engaging in a very bad habit that, if found by potential lovers, will harm every chance of making my relationship dream come true. I have repeatedly had sex with prostitutes. This practice I condemn because I see no moral value in it. As the man that I am, I'm rehabilitating myself from engaging in this bad thing. While in this renewal of self, I will relentlessly persue the dream girl through unusual means which might have been condemned. That is trying to impress her with my style of fashion. The attempt to use queen's language very fluently and, unusual of me, project confidence. In addition to my social dilemma, i have come to understand that people have a way of reaching a conclusion. Last time I touched the good stuff, some guys thought I am a regular smoker. And incidentally I kissed a gay guy. Now everyone who heard or saw me think i'm gay but I saw that kiss as a convinient way of showing that people can do stuff just to cause as a stir and entertain not to say I'm gay. I'm a straight guy with abudant sexual desires. I have come out of those misdeeds strong and having learnt to do when people around you are quick to judge. These are some of engagement I would never see myself in ever
My objectives which I have vowed to see through are personally motivated for me to risk the idea of living with a girlfriend. As a human being, I have found my decision economically selfish ambitions which I have subjected myself to bearing the consequences than conforming.
The man that I am is only human who can be fallible but really trying hard to find sustaineble solutions.
My past experience has shown me i'm still immature to take care of anyone whom i might consider 'my girlfriend'. I'm still interested in boyish charms such as dating a very beautiful lass in town, and having wild sex without the consideration of settling down. Although, I have doubt of achieving such a superficial ideal because I have not realised it yet, I wonder how will I know to settle down if haven't achieved the ideal.
Recently, I was engaging in a very bad habit that, if found by potential lovers, will harm every chance of making my relationship dream come true. I have repeatedly had sex with prostitutes. This practice I condemn because I see no moral value in it. As the man that I am, I'm rehabilitating myself from engaging in this bad thing. While in this renewal of self, I will relentlessly persue the dream girl through unusual means which might have been condemned. That is trying to impress her with my style of fashion. The attempt to use queen's language very fluently and, unusual of me, project confidence. In addition to my social dilemma, i have come to understand that people have a way of reaching a conclusion. Last time I touched the good stuff, some guys thought I am a regular smoker. And incidentally I kissed a gay guy. Now everyone who heard or saw me think i'm gay but I saw that kiss as a convinient way of showing that people can do stuff just to cause as a stir and entertain not to say I'm gay. I'm a straight guy with abudant sexual desires. I have come out of those misdeeds strong and having learnt to do when people around you are quick to judge. These are some of engagement I would never see myself in ever
My objectives which I have vowed to see through are personally motivated for me to risk the idea of living with a girlfriend. As a human being, I have found my decision economically selfish ambitions which I have subjected myself to bearing the consequences than conforming.
The man that I am is only human who can be fallible but really trying hard to find sustaineble solutions.
Saturday, August 9, 2008
There's nothing wrong with talking
Well....
I have come to an understanding that my incessant mood is very much in tune with the need to communicate in a higher level. However, this need has been interpreted as 'uncanny ability to brand oneself as distant and self-interested.
You are my judges in term of knowing whether there is any substance in what the majority of my critics would love to retort. Trying to think in a very indifferent level is neither wrong nor right. There is a moment in everyone's cycle to note that personal space is needed in order to reflect the direction one is going. I'm no exception to such reflection.
In essence, to communicate in very higher level is neither wrong nor right. I want to stress the fact that being oneself in a self-motivated market does not restrict one from the freedom of adaptability. When the market(people) reach aceratin stage, they find that there is a point in keeping quiet for a while. We, as human beings with undeniably complicated brains, realise that making contact is not enviromental necessary all the time.
Just imagine what is the result of keeping quiet when you are being offered an oppurtunity to make at least $30.000 per month to make happen the strategic objectives of an organisation. 'I don't think anyone will make a sustained effort of keeping quiet', i can hear you say.
I can tell you as we soeak right now that, I have an affinity(or shall i 'love with earning a salary that can, at least be of convinience in reaching my personal objectives')
When that opportunity is offered to me; I hope it should be offered to me, I will not rethink the reflective mood that i was in. All I will do is to remember that 'there's nothing wrong with talking'.
I have come to an understanding that my incessant mood is very much in tune with the need to communicate in a higher level. However, this need has been interpreted as 'uncanny ability to brand oneself as distant and self-interested.
You are my judges in term of knowing whether there is any substance in what the majority of my critics would love to retort. Trying to think in a very indifferent level is neither wrong nor right. There is a moment in everyone's cycle to note that personal space is needed in order to reflect the direction one is going. I'm no exception to such reflection.
In essence, to communicate in very higher level is neither wrong nor right. I want to stress the fact that being oneself in a self-motivated market does not restrict one from the freedom of adaptability. When the market(people) reach aceratin stage, they find that there is a point in keeping quiet for a while. We, as human beings with undeniably complicated brains, realise that making contact is not enviromental necessary all the time.
Just imagine what is the result of keeping quiet when you are being offered an oppurtunity to make at least $30.000 per month to make happen the strategic objectives of an organisation. 'I don't think anyone will make a sustained effort of keeping quiet', i can hear you say.
I can tell you as we soeak right now that, I have an affinity(or shall i 'love with earning a salary that can, at least be of convinience in reaching my personal objectives')
When that opportunity is offered to me; I hope it should be offered to me, I will not rethink the reflective mood that i was in. All I will do is to remember that 'there's nothing wrong with talking'.
Monday, August 4, 2008
The Passion of Owen
Everyone has passion!Anything has passion.
The only passion that anyone could ever have is genuine passion. I think to uncover your passion one should reveal what one is not passinate about. I have passion for beautiful women not over thirty years old, but I have no subtle perseverance to lure them into my bed where I want them the most. I have love for sex and I expect them to understand my other failings because in bed that's where I perform better. I mean, why would we exhaust our sexual energy by going indirect to what you know. I f women were not human, then I would understand the softening part, but I normally do not know what am I expected to say to a women in order to have intercourse with them. Why don't they, when they have realised how much they love me, assume that I have told them anything they want to hear.
You see, I have passion for love, not conditional love, where your attitude will be judged.
I have passion for studying and finding things out. To complete my PPE degree is my utmost vision. I want to complete the course because of its possible eye-opening in the way of dealing with shaddy characters. The only thing I do not like about studying is when I cannot remember all my answers without looking at the book. Anyone who studied will tell that; 'when I study, I want to know what I have studied by heart so I can relate it to my reality.' By next year I will be studying five modules for the first semester. Overall, for the whole year, i'll be studying ten modules. It's a three year course and I think it's my mandate to finish the course within three years.
People!The controversial specie on earth. I love working with certain people. People who do not judge me that much because humankind grew from mistakes than from successes. No one I came to think would want to work with people who are not on the same wavelength as him because there won't be any progressive understanding of why difference is not a bad thing. I can't understand that the Dalai Lama once said,'positive thinking can be increased through looking down on other people.' If I misquote him, hell forgive me! the point of looking down on someone whose life is far more better than yours, financially, mentally, physically and psychologically. I can stand criticism but I can't take kindly destructive criticism because that eliminate the bond that two people wereto share for their own good.
The only passion that anyone could ever have is genuine passion. I think to uncover your passion one should reveal what one is not passinate about. I have passion for beautiful women not over thirty years old, but I have no subtle perseverance to lure them into my bed where I want them the most. I have love for sex and I expect them to understand my other failings because in bed that's where I perform better. I mean, why would we exhaust our sexual energy by going indirect to what you know. I f women were not human, then I would understand the softening part, but I normally do not know what am I expected to say to a women in order to have intercourse with them. Why don't they, when they have realised how much they love me, assume that I have told them anything they want to hear.
You see, I have passion for love, not conditional love, where your attitude will be judged.
I have passion for studying and finding things out. To complete my PPE degree is my utmost vision. I want to complete the course because of its possible eye-opening in the way of dealing with shaddy characters. The only thing I do not like about studying is when I cannot remember all my answers without looking at the book. Anyone who studied will tell that; 'when I study, I want to know what I have studied by heart so I can relate it to my reality.' By next year I will be studying five modules for the first semester. Overall, for the whole year, i'll be studying ten modules. It's a three year course and I think it's my mandate to finish the course within three years.
People!The controversial specie on earth. I love working with certain people. People who do not judge me that much because humankind grew from mistakes than from successes. No one I came to think would want to work with people who are not on the same wavelength as him because there won't be any progressive understanding of why difference is not a bad thing. I can't understand that the Dalai Lama once said,'positive thinking can be increased through looking down on other people.' If I misquote him, hell forgive me! the point of looking down on someone whose life is far more better than yours, financially, mentally, physically and psychologically. I can stand criticism but I can't take kindly destructive criticism because that eliminate the bond that two people wereto share for their own good.
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