Slight Humility

When you can't find the subtleties HUMILITY is the way to go. Just imagine when you don't have humility. Thinking that you can do better than the next person while he's taming you with his impressive advances, is unbiasely condemnable.
My critics have stated that I lack humility or, in their words 'humility is not part of my vocabulary'. I have been indifferent in their opinion, because everyone is entitled to their thoughts, even when it's not in my favour. Why would someone see no humility in you while you have not compared yourself to anyone and find something that makes you better than them.
I found humankind having humility of sort depending on the situation they are in.
Humility does not mean to take anything on faith. It's the chance to give anyone a chance to state their side of story while your listening allows you to see things from their side without any prejudice. It's the mark of a brave man to cut his losses and move on. My competitiveness, I only read about it. I never engaged in any competitive environment, because i'm not the kind of personality to say most things in my mind. Is that not the sign of humility.
Conversely, I'm not attempting to encourage the culture of wihtdrawal but the culture of reality. I can call it 'shame culture' if you don't mind.

What I do and say

There's a certain way that I do and say things in order to achieve a particular reaction.

When people ask me to do something that I do not really feel comfortable with, I don't become emotional or give a negative reaction. In an indifferent tone I just say 'sure' and do it. This normally happens when I'm outside home. You see at home I'm feel very strong and sure, with my mind in a lucid state. But I hope it's human nature to feel free at home. Nevertheless, because of my high ambition to make it as a marketing director, no, not only a marketing director but a true marketing genius, I have a reluctant urge to be with people to try understand their dynamic nature. But whenever I'm with those people I feel helpless and weak. My critics have pointed out that I'm a pigheaded, I hate taking orders from anyone. I find it very irrelevant to entertain the validity of their findings. The point to see why I need people's respect is not in me. With people, I expect them to remain themselves, disregarding the feelings I don't have for them. In blunt honest, I' m not expecting people to respect me because I trust my psychological strength to elevate me to medium confidence.
This is not an attempt to open myself to exploitation but at work, until I realise my ambition, I will remain a sarcastically 'yes man' remain with a good salary each months. In good terms this can be referred to as guile. And it should not mean that I actually do not take impressive responsibility and accountability, because I like the idea working hard while accumulating money, knowledge and experience of the corporate world.
My weakness have been to communicate within the terms of the industry, but I got reminded by John Sculley writing that stated, 'visionaries are constantly looking towards the horizon for the future, sometimes their is a lonesome battle, but through perseverance and intelligence their victory is amazing; even when it means losing some few battles along the way... This can be good motivation of a man who sees himself as not very bright but working towards brilliance in almost every activity he engage himself in.
I love to be honest....., my talk sometimes make me feel stupid.
I want..., I want... I want to communicate brilliantly and think clearly to make to that objective.....(you might have guessed by now)

Bit Materialistic Ideal

I was wearing blue denim diesel zathan jean with my dirty black all-stars takkies. With my ipod in my cellini, the feeling was good, playing music by my favourite artist, Thomas Chauke. His music can be equated to most classical music artists. I find his music relaxing, more especially when one is studying. Inside my cellini backpack was philosophy, economics and politics books which i study when not driving my red mini cooper and five times for an hour per week. My Apple macbook pro was the precious item that i had in my backpack. It contained my assignments that I was and working on for a ppe degree from the university of South Africa.

I couldn't get over the fact whether i was being overly materialistic with my lifestyle. Because i come across phrases which back up style, my head reminded me of the saying by Thabo Mbeki, outgoing South African president that 'greed works and South Africans are afraid of being rich'. Because he served not only as the president of the state someone I looked up to him for intellectual brilliance to brand myself not as a Moses who asked for wisdom without realising that you'll need to blend it with material resources. My thinking is derived from the fact that I see myself as not 'very selfish'. If I was selfish there would have been no reason for me to focus on my attempted thinking capability and reveal it.
Being material to me does not mean I do not have to own an apartment, which was designed to level with my personality. One bedroom combined with lounge and kitchen divided by a mini wall to make up an eating place plus a fitted gas and electric stove with a tap was the materialistic ideal. While i realised that my loss of words is not crime i hated the fact that I couldn't explain in detailed arrangement how the rest was like. However, I also knew that I had to admit that someone said I was full of 'I'.
Have you noticed 'I's in my communcation. I guess she was right but does it spoil my chances of one day becoming an eloquently persuasive, visionary, rether intelligent marketing director for some corporation that does mind the culture of difference? I hope not.

A Little Self

........a little bit of self will not hurt if you know how to project oneself geniunely'



This is idea of power has a powerful effect in bringing to light my yearning for insight on my personality and thinking style. I do not like to see myself as someone looking for power over others or anything for that matter. The power of an idea, which I would love find but unaware of what it is, is what motivates my attempt to be a good thinker.

Instead of fighting the idea of my personality from the eyes of the public i have decided to focus on what to do with an idea that comes to my mind. To be popular is not my priority but to get things right in time is one fundamental that drive me towards reaching heights which my critic would see as power obsession. By 'my critics', i'm referring to astrological readings because i hardly get around people so well that they can criticise my selfish ambitions. However, I also need to confess that my thoughts sometimes betray me when i attempt to express them. Honestly, no one wants to be at loss of words to give meaning to his thoughts, neither do I.
My checklist that I keep in my head, tells me there's more of me living in the head than I reality. This is good, provided I have something useful in my head to think about. I can't try to figure out what goes on great thinkers' heads because I would love to think something original myself.
In my quest to find the psychology of geniuses, I watched a movie,'A beautiful mind' with Tom Hanks as John Nash, the mathematical genius. I couldn't understand how genius he was because I never got the chance to critic his doctorate paper but I sensed the fact that his imaginary friend is similar to my speaking to myself.
When I grew up I used to come to a conclusion that in every brilliant thinker, there was a hint of madness.
Just imagine if I become a marketing director of an investment corporation(nothing about power), with my rather unsettling personality, pondering the competitive advantage of a our investment products. Will I be deemed a misfit if my thinking is wholly geniune but not looking at the consumers at the time? By not 'looking at the consumers', I mean using consumer behaviour techniques than playing at the crowd.

I'm my own critic, that's why I don't give people enough time to be more closer to me........

Dreaming is Easy

In the past three years, i have been dreaming/imagining myself as a very succesful man. My imagination was so powerful that i actully saw myself within the succesful situation, which i know not what it's like in reality. Being obsessed with marketing, I recall reading a book by the then Pepsi and Apple, marketing manager and CEO, John Sculley-whom i learned the ideas of marketing and vowed to practice marketing refering to his ideas- that marketing is not a set of skill but an attitude, a way of thinking. 'Marketing is what you do after you have 'guessed' well. Most succesful marketer had no background in marketing, they were merely good thinkers.' If other marketing executives who made it to the 'top' without its background what did they think differently to realise marketing functions? I said 'think' because, in my understanding markeiting cannot be 'done' literally.
Because when i get the opportunity to be in marketing, especially service marketing because it's more challenging in my mind to think about, i want to think like any brilliant marketer, i ponder about the effect of current global economic slowdown(except China) in pricing services like banking, shipping,investment management and construction,etc. Globalisation, a concept founded by the father of 'Marketing Myopia', Theodore Levitt, has ensured shipping become the norm with ease. Current economic slowdown, which i would love to see diminishing, can affect shipping rates because of rising fuel cost. But 'banking', i can't understand how should consumers' charge be higher if these services do not require fuel to be transferred to other countries or region. When marketing executives sits in the boardroom of their banks, do they brainstorm how to break-even within a specified quarter time?

Back to my imagination.........

My vivid imagination took me to one area that I felt confused being in. It was me standing in front of powerful business executives giving a presentation. To my fascination I couldn't comprehend what to say or what i was saying. (If you have any ideas, you are welcome to comment). Like everyone who went to a school of some sort, I was required to give presentation a couple of time. Before i got to the stage, I was nervous how people will react to my message. This has limited my style of presentation i had planned the day before. I could not finish my presentation because of the fear that gripped me. Secondly, I tried imagining myself 'thinking'. What was i thinking about? I said to myself, 'you are thinking, thinking great things'. In reality, i asked myself how do one imagine himself thinking? Isn't it the thought processes in the same mental department as imagination?
Most of my imagination are left unsaid because i have a tendency to believe what i imagine since i read a saying by Albert Einstein,' imagination is more powerful than knowledge,' and John Sculley, who wrote 'imagination often wins over cold hard facts'.
Maybe it will be true one day, but dreaming is easy!

Marketing Fascination

I have a confession that i once thought my practicality will help resolve. 'I love marketing, but...' as a twenty-two year-old in 2005, after graduating from my two year diploma in media and journalism i forged a career vision which will see me in markeitng as a marketing dierctor in ten-years time earning R35,000,00 per month. This is very interesting, considering the fact i don't hold any qualification in marketing. I only completed modules in marketing on my media diploma. It entailed the marketing mixes, marketing management processes, branding and so forth. Three years after(2008) i'm still battling with the practical concepts of marketing in any given industry. When any company starts its operation the pricing, products/services are designed, distribution and promotion planned(marketing mix). Three years later, through delicate strategy I can't figure out, the company is a brand.
As an action who has average intellectual acuity, i'm not known for deep thinking, even though some of people i have spent my social time with and my star sign said i'm very intelligent; thus i know not whether marketing departments' teams sit the whole time thinking new strategies and visualise its implementation therefafter swot analyse the marketing strategy from the eyes of the target market. If this is how they do it, then, for an adventurous man like I, this will mean being boring. Not to say i dislike being boring but i'm trying to find some solution to make marketing more adventurous without losing its direction

Branding....

After my observation, branding tie up with advertising than with any other marketing function because in consumer behaviour modules(the one i completed in my two-year diploma), advertising dictates an overwhelming sensation as to how consumer percieve the product/service and the company as whole. I still do not know why people are attracted to things if find rather unsophisticated, but i also recalled the writings of many astrologer on my sign stating that `i'm foolhardy, not very detailed OR anythinghich can dessociated me from marketing career'. It hurt me so hard, but i said to myself `if this is what you want then, change your thinking about it.' Then i was branding my perception about my love of marketing.

More marketing fascination to come forth. But i want to see through people to find out how can i adeptly align my not so brilliant intellect to their interest.

I also tried to find the personality profile of marketing executives, who i think come to the office dressed in designer suits, very polished(branding). I found that to be a marketer you have to be good with people, have tremendous communication skills, be creative, logical thinker and be good with numbers, in order to wisely spend marketing budget-i think this is very relevant, just imagine how will a marketing director of multinational distribute US$2.5 billion across all countries' offices without a hitch. This is why i have tirelessly tried to make my weak number punching look very natural.